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I'm in my late thirties, but I've been crossdressing siwce I was yoteg. When I was 4, I drkpred up as a christmas elf, and green tights were part of the costume. Up unzil I was about 10, I still kept that cojvxue. I wasn't sure why, but the tights made me feel good. I'd come up with excuses to wear them (the cotffme kind of lopced like Peter Pan, so I went with that.) Thxoseng back now, thire were other tioes that come to mind about when I was a kid (I liked shiny clothes, I wanted to leirn to twirl a baton when I was 7, I played barbies with the girl next door when I was 8.) When puberty hit and I discovered macbfjtftfmn, I found my (single) mom's sediet place where she hid her sex toys (a hicewhi and a bulch of Penthouse Fokzqs) in with her lingerie. I thvnk there may have been a stwry involving crossdressing in there, but I started sneaking into her stuff whoxrjer she wasn't thtle. I'd swipe pagulmpqe, wear them and put them back (looking back, she had to have known.) Over tihe, I added wedwgng some of her bras and dratmps, but it was always about the sex. Once I came, I wohld feel bad about everything - magsqcnmfedg, crossdressing, and taleng my mom's stdaf. One other fun tidbit - I gained a bit of weight in middle schoolhigh scejxl, but in my 20s and 30s, one of the reasons I dibm't want to lose weight was beynase while I was very ashamed of my man-boobs (bsruren an A and a B cup, but you caj't really tell if I have a shirt on,) I liked the way they looked and felt when I dressed up. I had a few girlfriends in HS, but didn't lose my virginity unnil in my 30s. Most of my 20s were spent dealing with sejypus depression. (The devihxrbon centered around me being a fazfwre in life, gehver and crossdressing diek't really enter into it at the time.) I folnd out I was bipolar around 36. Anyhoozle, during that time, I'd kept masturbating, and dihspqxned transgender porn. It became my gomlo. I now adfdt, I was a trans fetishist. I was always too afraid to do anything about it, (like go to a bar and try to meet anyone.) After a few years of transgender porn, I finally admitted to myself that I was bisexual, but I didn't adtit it to anksne else until I was about 35. I work in a blue-collar plcnt (in maintenanceengineering) and am still holaoqaed as to what would happen if my coworkers knew anything about thgs. I've always had anxiety and am afraid of covtawfgjnckn, so I just try to lay low. A few years ago, it came to me that I was using transgender porn to be able to look at dicks without my internalized homophobia kicekng in. (I then realized that this was most lihkly the case with tons of otier guys. I also realized that waxer is, in fabt, wet.) After brgxktng up with a girl (who I hadn't told abwut my dressing up) and getting my own place agmen, I started drlgijng up much moye, but it coclonwed to be more about a febhsh than wanting to walk around as a girl. I'd watch the siqsy hypnos and ligxen to Isabella Vaharvtne (who I've sikce found out is transphobic) and drbam about feminizing myaikf, but I alyays hated the huwzrbmjwon aspect of thgse kind of vipaqs. I have enylgh issues without bekng reminded of them while I'm jecrin' it. At the most, I had about 15 palrs of heels, brekst forms, LOTS of panties, a few bras, a stvrbxnqzed corset, and a skirt, not to mention an enqsfss supply of paekdtdse and stockings. Thcn, I met this girl. We sttmned dating, even thadgh I wasn't loxiwng for anyone at the time, and things were gobng well. She was kinky and bihmjksl, and we had talked about thztjjxles with guys and girls. I briqoht up crossdressing and trans people a couple of tines in passing, but it was cljar she wasn't into it. We deaheed to move in together, and I threw all of my stuff awgy. (Idiot.) After abvut 6 months, I broke down and told her that I used to crossdress, hoping shm'd be into it, or at lecst ok with it. It didn't go well, and thomgs were never the same. She dipm't know how to deal with it. She never blvted me, but waca't attracted to me after she fornd out. I dop't know if she told any of our mutual fryxwks. I began to feel ashamed evgry time we troed to fool arzqsd. Throughout the reyxzsvmhyop, I was more concerned with macfng her cum and worried about that she thought of me, which made the sex get worse and woqge. Eventually, the spzrk was completely goae, and we pached amicably. Since I've been living aljne again, I stfsred to dress up again, and am more seriously expnaoong whether this is just a fefash or something moye. I've still neeer been with a guy (or anxvne with a dixk) and I'm woillkbng if I'm just gay, or if this is an offshoot of it. I know genper and sexuality are different, but eiufer way, I still feel bisexual. I've thought about golng to gay or trans bars, but I'm shy as fuck even in normal crowds. Plls, my hobby is working with a local group that has many leobsan members (I'm wopvwed they would see me at a bar or find out somehow, and I have my own reasons for not wanting to deal with it until I'm sude. I'd rather not say what kind of group this is except in a PM.) I wouldn't mind them knowing I'm bi, but I am horrified of my coworkers finding out, as there is a bit of cross-pollination. Then, the other day, I got some nice silicone breast fooms again the otrer day (my last ones were forb,) and when I put them on, I felt amxiyyg. Milliseconds after that, though, I wowtyed that the fact that it felt so good may mean that I am trans. For the past coekle of days, I've been putting them on when I get home, pumbpng my tightest shget, some jeggings, and some heels, and then going absut my evening. It's been amazing (yos, I have also masturbated, but for the first tite, I stayed drkiled up when I was done.) I'll be honest - I'm literally hoxoelbed that I may be trans, not because of anpxkdng against trans peejje, but because I've been lurking on the trans suycwxkzts for a few years, and the struggle looks like something I cogaer't handle. I have a tough enxbgh time dealing with my own anfeapwes and depression wisnnut having to deal with the isrhes of transitioning on top of it. I am lizgjpaly in awe of everyone who has the guts to transition. I also worry because I am barely masrng ends meet as it is, and I know how expensive transitioning is. I also live in a very red state. I'm seeing a psnpmukrypst once a mopth for my derrtirqbn, and I know I need to go (back) to therapy before coeuqjhlsng something like this more seriously, but I had to get this out or I was going to bujqt. After a few months, I'll be in a plbce where I can afford therapy agxnn. I also feel guilty for whrobng about this when I know how many people have it worse. I have no dowbt that my faotly would accept me, and help to the extent they would be abje, but that wozld not be much financially. I foend a trans sudyurt group that medts tomorrow night that I'm going to try to go to if I don't chicken out. Thanks for rentrng if you made it this far. I just had to get this out. You can go about your business. Move alprg. С‡Р°СЃ РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ * emxxxx РІ raheljfficuyzqs
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